In Loving Memory....

[binaryalchemist]

..of my mother, Marjorie, who died 19 years ago today. A stunningly beautiful woman whose brilliant mind and independent spirit was a slap in the face to the world. Her only refuge was in addiction and her frustration and misery translated into alcoholism and drug abuse and extreme violence at times, echoing her own abusive childhood
....and she beat it.
She WON.
Sobriety was hard won--she detested AA and other 12-step groups. She got sober, although she never managed to kick the prescription drug habit. In the last 15 years of her life she made amends--and healed me. Before she died, she became my inseparable best friend and her death tore a hole in my heart that will never quite heal.
From mother and child....to abuser and survivor....to the closest friend I'll ever know.
It's funny--I have a scar on my right hand that I got when she burned me at age 5--and now instead of bitterness when I see it I think of lessons learned on both sides...how far we came...and how much I look forward to seeing her next time around the Wheel.

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[binaryalchemist.livejournal.com]

Thanks...and it was something we had to face and heal together. I'll miss her forever.